The Marina Experiment

THOUGHT OF THE DAY

Posted on February 27, 2012 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment | Comments Off on THOUGHT OF THE DAY

I feel I have no love in my life. I know you will tell me about all my friends and how much they love me but it’s not the same as the love of a man. That’s what I want and it is what I have been denied. My hope is fading that it will […]

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FRAME OF REFERENCE

Posted on February 27, 2012 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment | 3 Comments

I write things and they might seem out of context for you, but for me they are always in context because my father’s mistreatment of me as a child will always be there affecting every relationship in my life in inappropriate ways. I hear from many others who watch my film that it brings up […]

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CHRISTMAS MEMORIES

Posted on May 7, 2011 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment | 5 Comments

I remember asking for a doll named Tiny Tiny Tears. I liked her because she cried “real tears,” the ad said. Santa told me that if I was very very good, and obeyed my father and my mother, I would get Tiny Tiny Tears next week. I never got Tiny Tiny Tears.

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FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY

Posted on July 4, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment | 4 Comments

Best book title ever. I never even needed to crack the binding. That title is the best advice I ever got. I have been thinking a lot about something, but have been afraid to write about it. In public anyway. Here it is.

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SEEKING ASYLUM

Posted on July 4, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment | 1 Comment

I don’t know what that’s like. to feel safe. to be embraced with no genital intentions just to feel cared for to feel safe. I don’t know what that’s like.

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REVELATION

Posted on July 3, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment | 1 Comment

Today I considered that maybe my relationship with my archive is akin to my relationship with men. I choose to be intimate with things that hurt me over and over.

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YOU SHOULD

Posted on July 2, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment | Comments Off on YOU SHOULD

I hate it when I hear it. If I want your advice I’ll ask for it. Don’t tell me what to do. You should take another pill. You should eat less carbs. You should ask for more money. You should tell her how you feel. You should keep it to yourself. You should buy yourself […]

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THE THOUGHT THAT DOESN’T COUNT

Posted on July 1, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment | 4 Comments

THE EMPTY PROMISE If it is not within your power or honest desire to guarantee that a particular thing will happen, please don’t bestow me with your “good intentions.” I am gullible and hopeful and so easily disappointed.

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