The Marina Experiment

OBITUARY HAIKU #2

Posted on May 3, 2011 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment

a kiss on the lips
I lock the door to my room
is he really dead?

FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY

Posted on July 4, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment

Best book title ever. I never even needed to crack the binding. That title is the best advice I ever got.

I have been thinking a lot about something, but have been afraid to write about it. In public anyway. Here it is. Read more

SEEKING ASYLUM

Posted on July 4, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment

I don’t know what that’s like.

to feel safe.

to be embraced with no genital intentions

just to feel cared for

to feel safe.

I don’t know what that’s like.

REVELATION

Posted on July 3, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment

Today I considered that maybe my relationship with my archive

is akin to my relationship with men.

I choose to be intimate with things that hurt me over and over.

YOU SHOULD

Posted on July 2, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment

I hate it when I hear it. If I want your advice I’ll ask for it. Don’t tell me what to do.

You should take another pill. You should eat less carbs. You should ask for more money. You should tell her how you feel. You should keep it to yourself. You should buy yourself a treat. You should return it. You should get rid of him. You should stay where you are. You should take a chance. You should ignore it.

YOU should.

THE THOUGHT THAT DOESN’T COUNT

Posted on July 1, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment

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THE EMPTY PROMISE

If it is not within your power or honest desire to guarantee that a particular thing will happen, please don’t bestow me with your “good intentions.” I am gullible and hopeful and so easily disappointed.

THE LARRY RIVERS ARCHIVE

Posted on July 1, 2010 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment

The NY Times published an article about the Larry Rivers archive, which was purchased by NYU for an undisclosed price. The  archive includes films and videos of Rivers’ two adolescent daughters, naked or topless, being interviewed by him about their developing breasts. Although my father was not a famous artist, he documented himself watching me in inappropriate ways, just like Larry. Was this a trend in 1970’s Manhattan? Read more

CHRISTMAS MEMORIES

Posted on July 2, 2009 - Filed Under The Marina Experiment

I remember asking for a doll named Tiny Tiny Tears. I liked her because she cried “real tears,” the ad said. Santa told me that if I was very very good, and obeyed my father and my mother, I would get Tiny Tiny Tears next week. I never got Tiny Tiny Tears. Read more